3 posts tagged “lucky”

[sings] ch-ch-ch-changes! [/sings]
my, how exciting it is to look at this place after i haven't logged on in forever.  yeah, school keeps me busy like that.  but i figured it was time to check if the place was officially open—which it's not, btw, but soon, i've read—and wow, look at it all.  pretty neat-o.

i've also taken advantaged of the lovely new layouts available.  all so prudy, it was hard to choose.  but elephants are cute.  so elephants it is.

anyhow, what is up with me, dear Vox journal?  or dear Vox buddies who happen to stumble across this update?  well, asides from school, there's school.  and school.  and school.  school is my life for this hopeful December graduate.  man, when i said i was gonna work my ass off in the fall this summer, who knew i was really gonna work my ass off?  i didn't.  and shit, look at me, i sooo am!  and stressed out double-time cause of all these projects due day after day.  it's hard to find time to myself and i hate that.

in other unfortunate news, since i haven't posted it here yet, or anywhere else for that matter, i lost 2 pets plus 1 stray feral kitten about 2-3 weeks ago.  it's been a pretty depressing time for me.  i lost my kitten, my dear beloved Lucky.  he was just not healthy, poor little tyke, and in the end he had kidney failure.  i really miss him, he was my baby and i was his mama.  my parents took it hard as well, and my mom is planning on adopting another [healthy] kitten after i graduate.  she needs to fill the hole that Lucky left.  no pet can replace him, but i don't think any of us can stand him not being with us any longer.  so all our extra extra love that we didn't get to lavish on Lucky will be put forth into caring for another pet that needs a home.

5 days later i lost my betta girl, Brownie. she was the last of my 'giant' bettas to survive, and had lived a pretty long life (about 2 years).  she was a happy girl and just the best betta around.  she kept my spirits up and was strong; she was a survivor, a fighter.  she was absolutely wonderful and i don't regret the day i took her home from Wal-Mart.  i miss her so much.  she's survived by me, and her 3 small bettas sisters and 1 small betta brother.

3 days after that, one of the feral kittens residing in our backyard was hit in a street accident and found right in front of our driveway.  i couldn't believe it.  i was already so depressed and now this had to be added on top of that.  i was not feeling well for a long time.

i'm still not feeling all that great.  i haven't actually taken the time to release all of my grief.  i can't afford to, with school keeping me tied up.  i know it's not good to bottle it up, but i just don't want to cry anymore.  the thing is, i just don't know when i'll get over this feeling of loss.  it hurts too much to think about so i avoid it.  it's not good, i know.

on another note, a more happier note that is, i finally get to take a small vacation this weekend!  yay!  where to, you ask?  [sings] viva, Las Vegas! [/sings].  i'm going for birthdays and bachelor parties (that one i'm not actually attending but some of my party is going to) and visiting friends and family and mostly to relax and have a good time.  like that run-on sentence, do you?

i think i deserve it.  i've worked pretty hard so far into the semester, everything i've created i've been pretty proud of, so good on me to take a break.
anyhow, this is hella long.  has Vox created codes similar to lj-cuts yet?  cause i definitely would use it/need it.
have a good one peeps.

soooo... my blog has been pretty much dead since the semester started. remember how worried i was about my time management and having to work my ass off for the next 3 months? well, it has officially begun. last night i pulled my first all-nighter of the semester writing a paper and already slept through a class this morning.  damn.

i look forward to the weekend, where i can semi-relax and just catch up on all the work i have to complete.  and the funny thing is, lately i've been in a dance-clubby mood. i guess there's just too much good music out right now that makes me wanna shake my booty. but dancing in my car as i drive will have to suffice.

as far as school goes, so far my teachers are all pretty cool. one's damn intimidating, but she's starting to warm up to the class. another is freakin' talkative and just likes to run at the mouth, but hey—anything to make the time fly faster. too bad the conversation doesn't relate so much to what the class needs to learn.  there's one who, as interesting as the lectures can be, just makes me yawn all throughout the hour. and the other one is the type that likes to call on people and force them to participate. he's cool and all, but damn, i hate that shit.

as for life, well it's just been one stressful ride. between having a relationship that needs healing and raising a kitten, i'm litterally torn in two. but i just have to manage the best that i can. oh man, if only i could post my true feelings on the topic i would, but i can't and i won't cause my ass isn't trying to start up any more drama than need be. the stress of still being at home is getting to me too. i cannot wait until the year is over and be able to start moving forward with my life.

Lucky is seemingly growing up well; very playing and all, but doesn't want to be weened from his bottle yet. at the same time, he doesn't neccessarily want his bottle either (chewing it up). finally his next vet appointment is tomorrow and i can get a progess check on him and how he's doing and how we're doing as caregivers. cross your fingers that all is good! *crosses fingers*

as for the most loserific thing i've done since my last post, i've joined myspace. booo on me, i'm such a loser. so then why did i join? because my long-lost sister (technically cousin) wrangled me into it. and because i love her, i joined. but i feel so dumb being there. eh. eventually i'll get over it and watch me get addicted. isn't that a scary thought.

on a last update note, i encourage moviewatchers to go see Little Miss Sunshine. it's a terrific film. really.

i am...

bored.  and waiting for Project Runway to begin.

lately i can't seem to think of anything worth putting into words.  i'd rather this not be a 'rundown of my day' blog, but something more.  my DJ and LJ became one of those, and soon i became lazy to write down anything and it all started gathering dustballs with passwords lost and forgotten.  i like to write amusing things, and none of that has happened lately.  i like to write quirky things, and again, none of that has happened lately.

what has happened lately, you may wonder?  nothing much but raising a kitten.  my summer vacay is soon to be over in a week or so, and i'll be stressing out on classes and assignments, staying social, and bringing up a kitten right.  my family had been yoyo-ing the idea of keeping the little guy, but i've decided for them that we're keeping him and that we have to work together to do it correctly.  oy the pain in the pocket he's gonna bring, but well worth it, all in all.  i've named him Lucky.

naturally i'm not too excited about returning to school.  when am i ever?  i'm a bit nervous due to the workload, and have been heavily contemplating whether to withdraw my application for graduation so that i could give more attention to Lucky.  it's a crucial growing period for him right now, but so many --and i do mean sooo many-- people are looking forward to me finally being down with college once this year is over, including myself.  i don't know which to put first.  naturally, instinctively, i want to put Lucky first.  but oh the trouble i'll be in if i do that.  that's how heavy everyone is looking forward to me being done with school.  no one would understand that i would willingly go back another semester in order to bring up a kitten.  i'd so get the, "you're trippin'!" look.  but subconsciously i've made my decision that i'm going to stick it out and just go full-time and raise the baby.  many people do it, i'm sure, with a human infant no less; so i can do it too.  i hope.

well company just arrived so i have to cut the ramble short.  thanks for listening.  the flow was actually pretty easy today. :)